No. 7

Hey All!!

This week has been full of ups and downs. I am trying to find the positive side but i ts hard.

Really hard.

I know God has my plan. A better plan than I can even think of for myself. But its hard to find the point where you fully let go and just become okay with what you’re dealing with. I would have never thought trying to start a family would be this hard. Never. But like I said before, I am really trying to find the positive in everything.

Going through infertility is eye opening. On so many levels. For me its been an eye opener on what I want from this beautiful life. And definitely what I don’t want. I want to be fully fulfilled by my Savior. I want to live my life fully for Christ. I want to pray more. I want to take time throughout my day and be in the presence of the Lord. I don’t want to have my life consumed in “What Ifs”. I don’t want to hold off on making plans in my future because MAYBE ill be pregnant by then. I don’t want to have meaningless friendships. I don’t want people in my life that I can’t fully rely on. I don’t want to live my life on pause.

I have recently started following some new women on Instagram which in turn has invited a few women to follow me. I can’t help but be inspired by these women. It makes me wide eyed thinking of my future, Can I write a book? Can I make this blogging thing my “thing”? My career? Can I be invited to give my story on a podcast?? My only answer that keeps running through my head, WHY NOT!!! Why can’t I have dreams and aspirations like this?? I am worthy of these dreams and hopes!

Between the pills, ultrasounds, and the prayers that your period doesn’t come, that is what I plan on focusing on. On the endless possibilities that is out there for me.

 

 

Xo

 

 

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2 thoughts on “No. 7

  1. Hey girl! People like us need to stick together. I just recently started my page if you want to check out my blog concerning PCOS. Infertility is so hard to deal with, but you aren’t along. You’re strong and amazing and I hear success stories all the time. You are loved and it will all work out!

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